embrace being scared

I jumped off the roof
midway thought of something
that made me want
to stay

I didn't pick up the phone
didn't have that meaningful conversation
didn't ask for more
didn't ask for help

I forgot my mind and soul
I ignored the things
I used to love

then I woke up

had that meaningful conversation
asked for help
asked for a loving friend
a loving hand

I didn't really go for it
before
I jumped to another boulding
without looking around me

I feel like my body finally listened
to the request
I send a year ago
It finally jumped off that roof

from the day that I met you
I started to embrace
being scared

It just means I'm living

I'm hoping for a deep connection
with the world
mostly,
I'm hoping for a deep connection
with myself

I'm just a hopeless romantic
trying to love myself
as much as I love others