Hard to believe

Not a day goes by without you in my mind
Every little thing reminds me of you
Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
And sometimes I just don't know what to do anymore

I wonder if the pain ever goes away
But then I remind myself that that's not what I want
It scares me

What if the pain goes away?
Does that mean I stopped missing you?
Does it mean that I stopped remembering you?
Or does it mean I stopped loving you?
Cause that's not what I want

There are times when I'm scared
Scared off what the future will bring
Afraid to lose my memories
Afraid I would forget you
I can't forgive myself if I do

But there are also better times
When thinking about the future makes me calm
Then I realise there's no way I could forget you
You are a part of me and so a part of my life
My future

Just then
At that moment
I know I don't have to be scared anymore
Cause you're always with me
Now
And for the rest of my life
Right here
In my heart