See the pain behind my laugh

The pain is still inside my heart
It's impossible to take it away
I can't give myself the helping hand
I don't see the reasons to stay

There's nothing left to say
It seems impossible to get a happy life
The only thing I see on this moment
Is the question: why should I surive?

Why should I keep fighting?
I don't want to deal with this pain
The clouds are hiding the sun
I'm standing all alone in this rain

I don't see the sunshine anymore
Tears are rolling all over my face
This isn't the place were I belong
I don't want to be on this place

I'm faking a smile every day
But no one takes a look behind
No one sees the pain behind my laugh
And the question is still in my mind

Why should I survive?