Indistinct freedom

I have been told recently, that I am free
If I am free, why would I be yearning to flee?
I have been told recently, who I would be
If I barely know myself, how could you have an idea,
who I am, what I think, whatever is “me”.

Is this freedom? To be afraid of rejection
Only wanting to explain my unappreciated affection
Is this freedom? To be afraid of contraction
And responding in a way for your satisfaction
Raging ‘cause I’m not believed this was also my action

I am free to be down, misunderstood and alone
Being chained in a place you call your own home
I am free to be depressed, to wander, to roam
Thinking ‘bout how we used to shine, now glued to the phone
Then I used to rule the world, but I’m kicked from my throne

It cannot be freedom to hide from today
To withhold every struggle, and slowly fade away
It cannot be freedom to waste every single day
Only living to an event, waiting for your birthday
A breakthrough, which will no longer force me to stay

This is a battle worsened by past’s memory
This is a battle with today’s obscurity
This is a battle healed by future’s security
Healed by the chords of love,
Composed by world’s finest composer…
Healed by You