My memories keep searching me

My memories keep searching me
It's panic in my head
I don't want to listen to it
but it's all I've ever had

Who's right or wrong doesn't mather
I know I've left them all behind
No one else to blame but me
Not even the ones that didn't mind

They came back like nothing happened
Not knowing about the scars they left behind
I tried to look for them but they didn't knew
about the pieces I couldn't find

But when I thought I found them
they dissapeared like snow
thinking how It coul have been
But they will never ever know