Once I was stronger

Once there was a time I was strong,
but those times are gone right now.
There was a time I knew I wasn't wrong,
I've got to hold on but how?

There's so much pain inside my heart,
I can't take this any longer.
I just can't make a whole new start,
and I'd wish I was a lot stronger.

Sometimes it's me I hate,
because the people I love are hurt by me.
I know I have to deal with the fate,
but that's something I can't, do you see?

I just have to fight every day,
and the questions have broken my soul.
And at moments I don't see another way,
I just lose all controll.
These moments are the moments I want to fly away.

And it all hurts me so bad,
I'd give up if there wasn't anybody to stay for.
The situation looks so sad,
but for them I'll keep looking till I find the door.

© Nathalie