Constant sorrow

The constant feeling of sacrifice is burning inside me.
It´s like a million rats are eating their way through my body.

My primary needs feels like secondary deeds.
The most important things feels like in-between flings.

Every word feels like the sharp edge of a knife.
Sadness is sleeping next to me in bed.
It´s there when i wake up. It´s there when i sleep.
A bad thing to keep.

I´m drowning in self-pity. Somebody hit me.
I can´t take this anymore.
Walking pass the shore.
I keep thinking i want more then before.

When is it going to be my turn to shine.
To shine through this darkness.
To kick away this person in front of me.
The other side that is hiding the real me.

There are moments that the beams of the sun will shine through every obstacle that comes my way.
Day by day i wait for that moment to stay. Is it the hope that keeps me waking up every day?