I used to lie

I used to lie,
I used to lie to you,
actually I used to lie to everyone.
Untill I met a special girl,
I told her the truth,
from the very begin,
and she seemed to like me,
for who I am,
not for who I'm acting.
So I started to be honest to you,
and at first you looked confused,
you didn't understand,
then you looked angry,
but just for a few seconds,
you didn't understand why,
I didn't tell you before.
But then you seemd to understand,
you understood that it was hard,
hard to talk about,
because it was so painfull,
it was a really hard time,
there was no one I could trust,
there was no one who could understand.
At least,
that was what I thought,
but after I told you the truth,
I became honest to everyone,
and they seemed to understand.
You and all the others,
you all supported me,
and I'm still very pleased,
grateful, and happy,
I just want to thank you,
because you mean everything,
everything for me.

(c) Joske