every night

every night i am awake
i am awake and i can´t sleep
i can´t sleep because i´m afraid
i´m afraid that she will die
she will die in an awful way
an awful way that she had chosen
she had chosen to kill herself
to kill herself and leaving me behind
leaving me behind with pain and sadniss
pain and sadniss is what i feel
what i feel is desperate and lonely
desperate and lonely, the rest of my young life
my young life, my young soul
my young soul that already´s been through so much
through so much and she didn´t even killed herself..