Gone away

yeah i know how it feels,
to sit alone in the darkness, so no one can see you crying.
waiting for everybody to fall asleep, so you can stop all the fake trying.
trying to look happy all the time,
the only time i'm real, is when i rhyme.
falling apart in your bed,
just a few more hours ahead.
'till the pretending that you're absolutely fine has to begin,
trying to show how happy once upon a time you've been.
trying to get your mouth into a smile is getting harder every day,
it's so hard to try to be happy, when that feeling has absolutely gone away..