What if I took you then with me?

Wonderful times when you were in my womb
I waited with excitement for so long
Suddenly its time..I brought you to this world

I was then the happiest mother on earth
when i hold you in my arms.
At night,I always watch you,while you were sleeping
I was so afraid you might stop breathing.

Your smile bring sunshine to me
Your eyes glowing, when you are happy
Your laughs was a joy to me,
While you are playing around,
We were happy, just the two of us together

Timed changed,you grew up
Suddenly,you dont need my care no more
I thought,I´ve done my job,of being a mother
I brought you up,and guided you
And i guess until then
You did left,and just close the door behind you
And i was left alone with just our memories

Days,months,years,
Every b-day, every christmas,have passed
did hear nothing from you...
Your room was full of unopened presents
I was wondering where you might be?

Accidentally,I found you
I was so excited,to have you in my arms
to smell your scent,able to touch your hair.........

But, my heart broke into thousand pieces
When i saw your uncared body
You look so strange to me
You are still my baby
and i love you with all my heart

Your eyes was not glowing
No sweet smile on your face
No sunshine but darkness
Not the two of us no more
You are with somebody else

I was unwanted,and I felt the pain
I just hold you in my arms again and left.
This time I closed the door behind me
The last time I ever saw your face.

Many years,passed by
Still asking myself
What if i took you then with me
Are you beter off from drugs?
Will you still be alive?