i don't want this.

i can't explain the way it feels
i can't find the words
who says; 'it hurts to tell it'
i can't say what's bothering me.
can i live with these pain?
can i forget everything?
to make a start-over?
there're a lot of questions.
but i can't give the answer.
i have enough confidence.
but i can't tell it.
i need to process
and when i've learnd
to tell about my fear
maybe i can do it then.
but my heart is crying now.
my head is overcrowded.
and when i'm writing this
the puzzle falls into each.
i'm not going to tell about my fear.