Can't find my way out..

I try to cry, but I just can't. I don't want sympathy, I just want to go on with my life. just want to forget al the bad things that are happened. no, I don't want to forget him, but i want to learn to live without him. i guess all of my good memories slowly seem to fade away and the bad memories seem to take over my life. I miss you every day and when I think about all the things we passed trough I forget the bad things for a while and it lights me up a little bit but when our memories fade away, the bad feelings come back and take over my mind, heart and life, I fall into a black hole again and it just doesn't seem to have a way out...