How I Smile

In my heart emotions die.
I seem ok but it’s all a lie.
You look at me and see my smile.
For ever instead of once in a while.
The smile forms my character, my emotions and whatever else I feel.
The smile is my shield against my pain the suffering with in my heart I seal.
My smile is my thing is my lie my disguise.
My smile is how I am and how full I am with lies.
If you look closely you can see it in my eyes.
There deep beneath the surface are my hidden cries.
But the way I smile is beyond believe.
Make me sad and my smile will retrieve me.
From every pain and suffering.
I feel my heart give a sting.
When something hurts me again.
But you’ll never see my smile fade.
When you do it is to late.
And it’s just an other twist of fate.
Cause when you see me with my smile.
And see it fading for a while.
Then I promise you you’ll never see my smile again.