Obsessed by death

I don't know much about life
And going death
But I know he has me in his grip
To the pleasure of here not to be

Only in my dream
I can see myself dying
With the last look on who's crying
But I want that to be true
Or is my dream just a clue
Of something I have to do?

My life is just one big mistake
Of someone who wasn't awake
When they create my body and my soul
Because inside, it feels so cold
I want to feel the fire everybody feels
So faith make my body heal

Only in my dream
I can make it happening
So please give me the blessing
And I became the new death queen
My body don't need to wait
So open the gate
Cause I want to be death

When I wake up
I desire to my dream
That comes true
And end in the death