It feels like

It feels like, there is something, that’s killing me slowly.
Like a poison
Spreading trough my veins.
And I’m the one allowing it to be there,
That the one who is making the poison isn’t be stopped
My heart that is.
It is a mix of fear, mistrust and untruthful things.
It is strangling me, my heart is in pain
Try’s to keep beating
But almost can’t stand the pain.
It slowly turns into black
Light is fading
And I know I have to do something.
Before the light is gone al away
Bring things to the light, show the truth
That will make the light grow
But somehow I just seem unable to do it!
So I’m suffering in silence
And keep at this pace
As long I can take
Until I break up or break trough.