Trying so hard to forget

I'm trying so hard to forget,
that I'm forgetting to remember.

Trying so hard to forget the past,
that I'm not living in the present.

Trying so hard to forget you,
that I'm forgetting myself.

But no matter what I try,
your memory is in mine.

Trying so hard to forget you,
that it's etched into my mind.

I'm trying so hard to put up a mask,
that I'm forgetting the real.

I'm trying so hard to stay alive,
that I'm forgetting to live.

I'm trying so hard to forget you,
that I can't forget you.
Why can't you just go?