Despair taking over

I’m alone
on the path of despair
just don’t know
cuz of the darkness everywhere
every step could be lethal
causing my world to crash
but I know that from the ash will the phoenix rise
and everything gets enlightenment and send to paradise
but I don’t want to sacrifice them
I know there time isn’t done yet
so I try to save their lives no matter how mad I get
but my sight is getting weakened by my own despair
I don’t know why but it’s getting worse
just need to stop wondering
about this dam curse