Feeling down.

I can’t believe It’s happening again.
Life is just a hard fight.
I’m not like a strong man.
But what I can do is write.

I don’t want to deal with it anymore.
I want to give up my life.
I had the same shit before.
But I have to survive.

I’m crying every day.
My life is like a game.
But I don’t’ want to play.
And I've got no one to blame.

I’m scared for saying something wrong.
Are they going to be mad?
And If they’re mad, for how long?
I know that the one who will be mad is my dad.

The only thing I want is being happy.
I am trying so hard reach that.
But what I really am is crappy.
I wish my problem was being fat.

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