Love sick

Sometimes I feel like I will never find a nice guy
I have tried the internet dating thing
Wasn’t for me, I tried, don’t even know why
I’m just looking for that click

I don’t think I will meet a guy just walking on the street
When I like someone that always means they are either married or in a relationship
But my heart is jumping and I want to take that leap
I haven’t even succeeded in having a guy as a friendship

The relationship, if you can call it that, that I had was not what I wanted
I want to get married and laugh till I cry
I want a good looking, sweet, caring man, who gets me just like that
I don’t know why I don’t deserve a nice man, I really don’t know why

Every time I have butterflies for a man the guy is married or so
And I’m the one who ends up with heartbreak
And my butterflies don’t have anywhere to go
I long for love every time I wake

I don’t want to look at the television and see nice weddings when I won’t get married
I don’t want to be in a relationship for years and not get married
I wanted it so bad that I already bought a wedding dress
I’m just love sick I guess

I keep on wondering how am I gonna find a nice good looking guy
I am already 34 years old and I am not getting any younger
I am a good looking woman, I’m kind of hot, and that is not even a lie
How many years do I have to wait for a man, this just takes longer and longer

At night when I’m in bed I fantasies how I meet the man of my dreams and I look into his eyes
His hands hold my face when he kisses me and I close my eyes when I kiss my own hand
But my imagination is not enough and I cry out loud about my own lies
Tired of my own tears I fall asleep and have the most wonderful dreams knowing what it means

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