Facing the dark

I feel empty
Soulless
Fatigue
Afraid

Maybe it could have been different
From now on
How do I get better
When my head stays the same
When my thoughts won't change
When these images won't feel strange

Confused about all this being a misconception
Or the ultimate reality
Either way I have to face it
How much longer till I say
Till I say no more
Time will be up

And I know my weakness
Damages the one's around me
So, how do I face this?
How do I take this
The right way?