Losing it

Out of nothing,
Tears appear in my eyes..
Out of nothing,
I notice nothing works in my life..
The thoughts of giving up,
Cross my mind,
More and more every time..

I don’t want to lose control,
Not ever again..
But it feels like I’m getting close,
To freaking out..
I fuck everything up around me,
Cause I don’t know who I’ am anymore..

It’s all so unreal,
And all this shit, I just can’t explain..
I don’t know what I’m feeling,
I don’t know what I want..
Everything that first was so complete,
Is lost in my illusions..

What did I done wrong,
To deserve nothing more that this shit..
I need help before I’ll end it..
I’ve had enough of these illusions..
What the fuck is wrong with me…!