I love/hate you

I'll love you the rest of my days
And hate you in every single way
You're the love of my life
I like the way you smile
Although you're the one I love the most
You ruined my life and the way it used to go
I can not live without you there
But I also don't want to see you anywhere
The way the moon needs the sun to shine so bright
I need you to be my light
I like to imagine you hugging me
And the way things used to be
All my life I've been waiting for you
But now I don't know what to do