What if?

What if I would never be adopted?
Should I have a happy life?
What kind of person I would be?
What should be my way to survive?

I've got so much questions about myself
Much things could me different if I didn't leave my land
Of course I appreciate the chance I have got
But I'm just searching for a helping hand

Who can take me back to my past?
And show me all the things I missed these years
No one knows something about me and my life
My heart is just fill with pain and with fears

What would be my name?
How would I communicate with people around me?
Would I go to school when I didn't leave?
But I know there's a reson for this and I hope I'll see

These are just a few of the questions I have
I hope that I will ever find the answers one day
Till that time I have to fight for myself
And I also have to find the faith to stay