I cry inside

I cry inside,
Because of this anger inside,
Why am I so angry and furious and want to explode, destroy and let all good die,
Why am I so angry I want to hurt people and my....,
Myself,
Why do I have this craving to scream words and smash my guitar,
To destroy and kill all the light of the stars,
Why, tell me why, why?!,
I cry,
Cuz this ain't me you see, I don't want this but I'm forced from deep .....within,
I have to find a way,
To stay calm and wise,
No destroying because of lies,
Am I going crazy, because the set-ups in my mind, my weary thoughts, the world trying to invade me, or something alike,
I want to fly....away,
I just need some satisfaction,
Like you do, but yours doesn't fit like mine, so I take another line, and stay calm for a certain time,
I know, it's gonna smack me back right in the face, it's a waste,
Next week give me something more,
More acceptation in burning white,
More love day and night,
For me it's real, because it means peace,
Fireflies and butterflies,
Inspiration, motivation, acceptation, handling the situation without agitation,
I am walking the line now,
After tomorrow I can't remember how,
After tomorrow it will be gone,
Untill I snort the the next one,
And the next, and the next,
Just to keep the evil outside,
But it ain't the solution without lags,
How do I get back on track,
Without Billy chasing my neck,
And I cry again, cuz there will be anger, bitterness, and hatred again,
I need myself, I'm my own best friend, but that's not the way it works out in the end, I can't even pretend,
Smile and be positive, I can't,
I try to comprehend, I did not ment it this way,
It's the darkside gaining satisfaction, I don't get nothing at all,
I just collapse again and start to fall,
Pushing anyone away, as far as possible, but the truth is I don't want it so,
It's just my mechanism,
Need to change and escape from this prison,
Live, be free and scream like I'm winning,
Wave my hands like I just don't care,
Smile, enjoy and love,
Smile, enjoy and live,
I do have something good to give,
To the world.