bake a cake

what do I want?
what do I need?
how can I be the happiest
version of myself?

I should live a little more
try a little less
love a little deeper
make sure they know
how much I care

so much love in my pinky finger
in my stomich
behind my ribs
coming out of my hair
when I put it down

I give away all of it
how can I love myself
a little deeper?
how can I love myself
put myself In the first place?

I'm feeling alot
can't really put It to words
maybe a little depressed
maybe a little sad

I'm so afraid of losing
anyone
that i put all of them first
and myself last

I would like a tiny house
surrounded by trees
somewhere quiet
with a market nearby

a few books,
a tiny kithcen
where I can bake
a cake
dance around
like nobody is wathcing

dance with humans that
make me think
eat cake with them on the roof
wathcing the stars

smile because I'm happy
not because someone expects
me to
just because I can't
keep it in

get lost from time
to time

with someone
or all alone

I'll paint, write about everything
but mostly about me