You are history to me

depressed, because im obsessed
im a mess, i cant confess
pages turn blank, i only sank
words so hard, we fall apart
right from the start, you broke my heart

hope dieing, still trying
i ceep on crying, tears are staying
you blew my mind, now all is behind
can stop thinking, only limping

game over, start over
new life, new wife
start exploring, new morning
new day, feelings wont stay

forfill my dreams
sugar and lots of creams
new afternoon will start soon
break out of this cocoon
hope growing, not blowing

i can do this, dont need youre kiss
i`ll prove them youre wrong
yeahh i am strong
feelings so deep, which i`ll have to keep

another night, this time with some light
because im a fighter and a survivor
with a lighter and a guider
ready for the task, dont need to ask
you, to help me, allright is what im gonna be

not afraid anymore, now i want nothing more
then explore, hardcore,
lose the pain, because it only will stain
inpredictable, unsuspectable
thats what im gonna be
it will be the new me