heart break.

I miss him, but i won't cry,
I love him, but I hate him.
I want him back, he has to stay away from me.
I have memories but at the same time I don't.
he hasn't hurt me, but also he did.
Do I still know him? No, he isn't the same as he was before.

I don't know always what to do with this feelings and especially not at this moment...